Yang :)

So, like I said, I am posting a happy post!
Exams bring out the best in me - they squeeze in all the creative juices in my brain and it's one of those times I think the most and thus, end up being of some use to me and the world.


I want to talk about an exercise that I came across today, which I thought was intriguing, so I decided to try it out.


The exercise is - Write down the first 10 things that come across your mind that you know to be true.


10 Things I know to be true


1) We are technology dependent, and I can only see us depending more and more on it with each passing day.
2) I indulge in a lot of movies and tv series, basically anything which has a story in it. Stories fascinate me, I half-live in them and they keep my world alive.
3) Independence - freedom, excitement & love are very important to me. Freedom is a state of mind. Excitement keeps hope alive in me. Love is the most powerful energy.
4) Everyone should travel. It is one of the best learning experiences.
5) Mothers are the strongest people in the world. I don't know what I'd do without mine.
6) Time - best teacher and healer. Everyday we learn something.
7) Understanding me - atleast 75%- the reasons behind why I do what I do - is very difficult. One of those days, somebody will get through.
8) You need to find who you are. If you fail this, it doesn't matter what else you find.
9) Communication is the key. In every and all situations.
10) The world, is about to change, and we are leaving a foot-print with a drink of life on it.

Yin

Looks like I come here only when I am on the negative side of life.
Dear blog, you are my savior!
when I need perspective.
or my vent-box.
Sigh, I promise i'll be good to you and make an effort to express happiness here more often.

Day started on a hauntingly bad note. Had an argument with maa and then a bad exam. So, instead of sitting and sulking in a corner, I decided to live it up, and galloped to the nearest mall to watch a movie I was waiting for, for a long time - Tintin. Alone. Alone time is good. But not for too long. The city has become the busiest this past semester and slowly, daily meetings and checking with people from time to time - are taking painfully long.
Or like some people say, "it's just the age".
I thought the most adventurous part of the day was watching the movie, but little did I know, it was just the beginning.
Within 2 minutes of reaching home, I ended up under a broken shelf with a broken finger and chocolate syrup on my face.
And, the rambling w.o.n.t. stop.

I need mental peace.
I need a room of my own.
I need love - real. Not virtual.
I need excitement.

I need direction in life.

Up.

I feel so positive today. There is this energy bursting out of me. I could jump on top of a rainbow and spring wings and fly on top of the ocean. There is so much sunlight around. The warm rays falling on my skin makes me alive. I love the sun. Cold is so passe. It resembles gloom, I feel. I could meet a thousand people today and still not be wary by the end of the day. I could talk forever and ever.. And people who know me, know that I can and I will. :)
I could dance till my legs give up. I can think of a thousand things to do in the coming year. I feel light-headed, which is so rare. I thought it turned into extinction. Everything feels so perfect.
I am finally out of my cocoon.

How do you get people out of your heart? 

Why don't they teach this in school? Maybe its one of those things we need to learn on our own.

How do you deal when people stopped missing you? You start wondering how you give them that chance. But then you realize you are too scared to ever let anyone in. 

Because hearts are very fragile. 

I don't trust mine. Its been a damaged good for way too long now.

Sometimes all you want is for somebody to just hug you tight and say its going to be alright. Everything is going to be just fine.

I wish I stop listening to my heart and just listen to what my brain says.

Sometimes you just wish your heart wasn't so stubborn. You weren't so stubborn. But blame it on the heart for now if that satisfies you.

Sometimes you just wish you had some one. To just let it all out.

The tug at my heart. I just swallow, put on a smile, and go on. But there are times I punch my pillow wishing for it to just go away.

So..

There are a hundred thoughts and a hundred things to worry about or not worry about.

All that is happening is, my brain has shut down. It just doesn't want to think anymore.

It screams out loud early in the morning for a holiday. It has been working for a person who loves holidays. And now it actually realises why it wants a holiday.
Holiday means going away from this place, just letting it go. Leaving the people here and the thoughts here. In my happy place.
Every single minute of every single day it cries out loud. So much so that it has now stopped thinking. No thoughts, no emotions. Insensitivity is slowly creeping into the head.

Mind you, (haha, what an irony) you mind, go for a holiday. Breathe out. There is too much air inside.

Soon.

And evenings like these.. :)

An afternoon, tired, sleepy and hungry, I went,

a movie unfinished, he slept,

a movie finished, I slept,

and she got chinese, and we ate. :)

With smiles as innocent as children and those lazy afternoons in the summer. We sat and we talked, we made fun of each other, we missed a piece of the square, who was soon coming home, to us.

We laughed and we laughed, because thats how he lives his life, and makes ours. 

She goes.
and then me and he remain. I learn how to play a guitar and realise they are pure genius.  

We did absolutely nothing, but then we did everything. :) 

Fought like 2 year old kids, screamed, fooled around with our fb a/cs.. Ate "maggi".

Simple joys. :) 

Sat on the couch, spoke. Life, the future. People assume he doesn't think much. I din't. I was right.

The course, two problems of life, where we and they separate.

and water trickled. He says,"You know why I don't usually talk about these with you? Just look at yourself in the mirror."


There was warmth somewhere deep inside. and i felt cold.

Slow evening it was, life was fast. 

From the kids we were to the thoughts now. With 18, comes responsibility. 

I din't know so much was going on in your head. Funny brain it was! 4 years or 10 years, or when all of us get married, the course of life will always take us together, in a journey I chose to travel with you, forever.

I promise, distance will never matter, we won't make it matter.

Life was good. Life will be even better.

I heard somewhere that early morning dreams come true.
I hope it does.
:)